Well – today marks the one week mark before I start on my surgery prep.  A week from today I’ll have my class to discuss things and start on my two week liquid – liver shrinking diet.  It will be two weeks of chicken broth and jello.  Yay!  I’m trying not to dwell on the surgery, because I don’t want to psych myself out.  But it’ll be here before I know it.  I am just hoping it all goes smoothly and I won’t have any complications.

I had one of my stomach episodes last week.  Luckily it started towards the end of the day, so I didn’t have to leave work early or anything, but it was a LONG night, and a long next day, since I had little sleep.  They have never been able to find the source as to what causes this to happen.  I think I have had every medical test under the sun.  It is really frustrating.  It hasn’t happened after I eat a certain type of food or done anything unique.  It’s just random and once it starts, there is NOTHING i can do to stop it.  I just have to ride it out.  It’s extremely painful and unpleasant.  I’m HOPING that it gets better or GOES AWAY completely once I have my surgery, but since there’s no idea as to what causes it, there’s no telling if this is a solution.  It first started shortly after I had my thyroid removed, but I wouldn’t think that would be a cause for it…..it’s just strange.

We finally got a new washer/dryer ordered.  There are several things in our house that need to be replaced.  We also need a new dish washer and new flooring.  But washer/dryer came first.  The washer has been ruining my clothes for a while now.  I just didn’t know what it was.  I finally posted about it on Facebook and from the responses found out it was oil leaking onto my clothes and it’d be easier to just replace.  It’s going to take a couple weeks for the model we want to come in.  I think I have these little grease spots on just about all my clothes, but I’m just dealing with it for now.  I’m not about to buy a bunch of new clothes when I’m getting ready to lose weight, so I’ll just wear what I have and hold off until it’s time to buy new clothes.  I’ll probably be wearing big clothes for a while or fit into the smaller clothes I already own.  I AM looking forward to cleaning out my closet and also to wear things I haven’t been able to for a while.  I gave a lot of my smaller clothes away when I was making room in the past, but there is still plenty there.  I know my husband will also be happy that I will be cleaning out the closet as I go!  I know he thinks I’m a bit of a hoarder.

Work and all the changes this past year is still stressing me out a bit.  I’m just not as happy as I used to be.  Don’t have the support I used to have.  I’m trying to get by though and get used to things and better myself.  Some days I just get frustrated though.  I’m just hard on myself.

So far I’ve done pretty good on taking a picture a day.  I really wish I felt more comfortable going out and taking pictures by myself around town.  So many times I want to go somewhere and take pictures and Tommie has no desire to, and then I just send up sitting at home.  I just wish I was more comfortable doing things on my own.  I’d like to get out more and take pictures and I’d like to make it to the community center more often.

Well – I guess I’ll wrap this up for now.  I’m sure I’ll post once I start on my diet.  I’ll hopefully not be TOO grumpy, but I am expecting some grumpiness.  Ha ha.